A Collection of Essays I Might Regret Writing
A Collection of essays
"Mommy Issues" is a collection of personal essays about a complicated woman. I’ve kept these stories hidden for over a decade and I knew they’d bubble and boil over one day. This series is an attempt to overcome my fears about the woman who raised me and convince myself that I did the right thing in the end. It is my own form of closure and releasing it to the public has been a part of that process. Rather than asking for sympathy, this project is a hope that people will simply understand and that others with the same complicated women in their lives will feel understood, too.
To tell this story, I needed to use film from my adolescence, a time when young adults are on the cusp of leaving home yet feel more trapped than ever. The photographs are composed of pale Miami skylines and empty beaches to capture a sense of abandonment, the overlying theme of this project.
Mothers are not perfect, but neither are their daughters. With each page, it becomes clear that although this is a weight off of my chest, I reveal a sense of guilt. In creating this series, I vilify myself by exposing such personal stories between a mother and her daughter. I’ve wondered if some of our secrets should remain exactly that—secrets. The entirety of this project is not only closure, but also a confession.
"It was painful to read and yet it was spoke with sublime clarity like a wounded bird that chirps it can't move. I think she has incapsulated the narcissistic personality with honestly some of the traits of the borderline personality. It is heart breaking. I am stunned and I have seen a lot."
-Joe Navarro, former FBI profiler and author of What Every Body is Saying and Dangerous Personalities
Sprout Blossom Wither
Sprout Blossom Wither started as a form of personal therapy, but it bloomed into something else. I attended a plant workshop to salvage my little graveyard of plants and obtained a sketchbook from a friend in the same week. In my spare time, I began to craft slightly neurotic and all too real thoughts paired next to an illustration of my sprouting plants. Once I realized I had already filled half of a sketchbook, I knew I needed to move forward with it.
Reasons For Leaving
November's small series of stories explores the vulnerability in candor. Everyone has their breaking point with a job, although no one likes to admit what truly broke them. A man faces social pressure to exude masculinity. A woman lives with the societal pressure to be "careful," and how that unsolicited message continues into her adult life. In a outro, I address the normalcy of ugly crying and how people cope with the guilt of feeling sad.
Lick Your Wounds, Pretty Girl
Lick You Wounds, Pretty Girl is a series of short stories about weird childhood memories, fiction, the loveless city of New York. I wanted this project to be creepy, but also feminine, which called for the pastel pink, floral illustrations, unsettling title, and graphic language.